Last night was a whirlwind!
Worked in the office until late, came back home, slept for 30m before a call to discuss bringing NXTM’s product into a major music platform, stayed up until 6am before passing out for a few hours, then hopped on the motorbike and rode into work to do it all over again
Even though I only had a few hours of sleep, I woke up feeling amazing!
No Sleep, No Food, No Problem, Well… Now Anyways
When I first noticed how good I felt, the first thought in my head was “Thank you God!”
There was no way in the world I should have felt that good, it was physically impossible to be on day three of a fast, with two hours of sleep, and wake up feeling fresher and alert than I had off of seven or eight hours of rest
Today my mood and energy have been extremely high and I feel great
Yesterday though, yikes…
I was so tired, slow, etc… that I felt like I could barely stand, but today it is like I never needed food in the first place
My prayers feel different now, but I have been so busy I haven’t spent as much time with God as I would like
At Some Point You Have To Let Go Of The Handlebars
Before I started fasting, I knew that with NXTM’s insane project hurtling down the track with no guarantee of launching on time, a fast, and my already raging lack of sleep, there was no way in the world I could manage all of that on my own, and but I trusted that if God wanted me to fast, he would uphold me
While on other fasts, I had kept working and going about my daily life, but at no point was my life ever this insane!
I actively chose to trust God would give me strength to go through all of this, and I didn’t do it because I had no other option, which is the case when life surprises us with bad situations and circumstances
Obedience And Trust
When I was first instructed to fast, even though I felt that it would be tough, I didn’t hesitate. My only concern was timing my return to the US so that I would be able to pray with my mom and Amy before heading to SXSW
However, after thinking about it further, I realize that my response to God’s instruction to fast was a new mixture of obedience and trust that I haven’t experienced before
I didn’t begrudge the fast and just stop eating because “God said so”, I genuinely acknowledged that it was no small thing to go without food during one of the most difficult professional weeks of my life, and plowed ahead with full faith that God would sustain me; he wouldn’t have asked me to fast in the first place if I was going to fail!
Ready For More
I am so grateful that God has upheld me, and I can’t wait for what tomorrow brings, even though it may mean even more frequent trips to the bathroom as I can’t stop drinking lemon water!